So some of you may know this already but just this past weekend I turned nineteen, and now I’m sitting here in front of my laptop and not much has changed except for the fact that I’ve now experienced what spending too much money on one drink is like. This entire weekend I was really trying to summarize my thoughts around birthdays and what they are, and what they mean to me. After all the time I spent thinking and pondering on the subject I’ve realized a few things. Even though as we get older we may not get as excited for our birthdays like we did as children, but when our birthdays roll around all we want is to feel special by getting a little bit more attention than usual. Which makes sense though because society has built an entire industry around birthdays and other similar types of events. We all think that there are things that we have to do or that we’re supposed to do when it’s our birthdays. Which isn’t true, birthdays are just a day where you get to look back on yourself and see how far you’ve progressed. Essentially see what you have done in a years time. As humans, we’re fortunate to be able to live as many years as we do and this should be taken advantage of. Give yourself a reason to celebrate on your birthday every year because if you don’t then it’s just another day. Potentially a sad one at that.
Hey so you guys know I really don’t know how I feel about life yet right, cool. Well right now is a great example of this because I don’t exactly know what I’m feeling I just know that I’m really feeling something. Okay so I don’t talk to guys about girls as much as they’re my mind, I don’t know why it’s just such a weird subject for me. The reason girls are on my mind so much is the fact that I know I really, really love one. I don’t know a lot of things about this life or even about myself for that matter, but one thing I know for sure is that I know I love this girl. The crazy part is I don’t know who she is yet. I thought I did but at this point I’m pretty sure I was wrong, which I’m okay with. I just get super duper confused around girls, that’s it. But no worries girl I’m confident I’ll find you, then when I do you’ll help me make sense of this place and maybe even help me figure out what I’m supposed to be doing here.
I want to start this one off by letting you guys know that I’m writing this outside enjoying the sun having a drink and overall just feeling good but more importantly inspired. Inspiration is so important, everything you do is inspired by something wether you know it or not. My best friend put it in the best terms when he said ” you have to go out and live life to get inspired, because if you don’t find inspiration somewhere in life you’ll never do anything” that really made a lot of sense to me. The best part about inspiration is that you don’t get to choose what inspires you, it just kind of finds you. All you have to do then is except it. I count myself as very lucky because I have someone in my life that inspires me everyday, and working with him makes me a lot more exited about life. Inspiration is everywhere just find out what it is for you and embrace the fuck out of it. To wrap this one up I want to thank all of you for inspiring me to continue writing simply by reading what I write, and I also want to give a huge thank you to the person that inspired this post. You know you you are brother man, love you hommie.
Good day everyone I hope all is well. Summertime is now upon me and yeah it’s exiting but this summer isn’t going to be like any other summer I’ve had. I’m grown up enough now and my responsibilities have finally outweighed well everything. Things are no longer changing in my life, now life’s officially much different. Which puts me in a weird space where I guess overall I’m just confused. Lately identifying my emotions has been somewhat of a struggle. Being aware of this has made me start to think about solutions to this problem. I finally realized that it comes down to being honest with yourself about what you’re feeling in any situation. And by that I mean don’t worry about anyone or anything for a moment and tell yourself how you feel. It is too easy to get distracted and run far away from what you’re actually feeling. It’s time for me to start always being honest with myself about my emotions before I start getting swept away and further confused by other peoples feelings.